When was the last time you've ever felt heartbroken? It sucks, doesn't it? Yes everyone will experience it some day in their lives. And for me, I've experienced it numerous times. What's the latest one, you might ask? Issues will always be different but one crucial thing remains the same - hurting my parents (emotionally).
It's like a tsunami hitting again and yet again. This time, it will bound to change our family structure for the rest of our lives - more for my parents. I was really depressed and tensed up for the past few weeks due to some idiotic workload, studies that involve numbers that don't make sense and also from this piece of shit. I will have to bear with it for the rest of my life. Yes, someday I will have to embrace it, but how? I would have to force myself to do it, knowing how stubborn I am.
Flashes of images popped up in my mind when I was told of the news. It will involve many people whom we don't know and I know it's going to be hard for my parents to deal with it. How can a person not think of the consequences before plunging into something big? I mean, I use the word 'Big' because it's not something to be taken lightly. Will my mother suffer because she might probably be forced to take care of the 'thing'? Will my father have to deal with 'it' because he has to? These are not images that I would want to have in my mind.
I need time to digest all these. Time will not heal but it will numb the pain.