Mouth is Sealed

I was deeply hurt few days back when he made a mean comment on the little child whom I love. What a child is born with has got little connection with what his/her parents have said. If it's what his/her parents have done, yes, I do believe. It's karma. She barely said anything, I suppose. I know her, though not like BFFs but hey I can bet my perky B that she didn't have any mean intention. Why can't he open his 'siham'-like mouth to say something? Is it really difficult to say something and to get away with it? Sometimes to not speak creates more misunderstanding. Sometimes to speak creates misunderstanding too. So in that case, why can't he say anything? I'm sure the languages that he speaks don't sound so alien to her, right? Now I can't help but to think about it. What if it backfires? Sometimes it's difficult living with an alien.

Why Should I?

A lot of times, we make allowances and we give in because we know we can push ourselves a little bit just to give people the joy of letting them have whatever they want. Most of the time, even when it hurts, we still say 'yes', 'sorry', 'okay' and other stuff which don't really portray how we really feel. Is that really necessary? At times, I think I'm done pleasing others because I have pride too. I have ego too! So why should I? I don't care what people think and what they say about me. I have fucking nothing to lose. Do they? Yes, karma. Bla bla bla, say whatever they want because I know I have something big in life to achieve. I don't even have the time to even plan something illegal for them to talk about behind my back. Hey, my back is clean, no shit! What's their big plan in life? Yes, to gossip about other people, offending people and a whole bunch of stupid things. So if there comes a day when they think I should please them due to seniority, sorry, uncles and aunties. Take a number and wait for your turn in your next life. I don't please people. So why is there a perception that younger people should please older people? There is only one possible reason that I can think of. They need to be pleased (butt buttered, ass licked, sole of the feet kissed) because they need to feel important before they die. Yeah, it sounds mean. But come to think of it, I think that explains it. The only older people whom I really respect are my parents and my Sensei. I don't have to please them. Why should I? When I'm being myself, they feel pleased. That's the way it should be! No pretending, no padding the messages and stuff. I'm just being myself =)

Budget Trip - Siem Reap, Cambodia.

I totally missed out on April. I guess there was too much excitement and also the fact that I've forgotten that I've a blog. Last month, I went to Siem Reap, Cambodia, with a bunch of colleagues. I wasn't expecting much because I knew nothing (then) about Siem Reap, Angkor Wat and the temples. Upon arrival, everything became an excitement, especially the figurines, carvings and the artistic designs on practically everything. The weather was hot and dry which explained my wire-like hair for a few days and my tanned skin. Luckily no sun burn or anything hehe. Visiting the temples was an awesome experience. There was a lot of walking, hiking and climbing involved and I'm proud to say that my little bottle accompanied me all the time! I'm a hippo so I cannot run out of water. That, you need to know. There wasn't much shopping cos we were (me, especially) on a budget trip. So, bought some fridge magnets, deco stuff, and some pants and a shirt for myself. In total, I've spent around RM7xx on that trip itself, including flight tickets. I felt proud of myself and guilty at the same time cos the money could be saved up for my wedding. But I seriously needed a break and the flight ticket was bought last year when Air Asia had a promo. Being in another country made me realize how beautiful Malaysia really is (minus the stupid political issues). The weather (not always), the water, the air... No! I think Miri is far better hahaha. Can feel the zen-ness. Despite the ugliness, it's still in a way beautiful when there's nothing to appreciate. Wahahaha.