When was the last time you've ever felt heartbroken? It sucks, doesn't it? Yes everyone will experience it some day in their lives. And for me, I've experienced it numerous times. What's the latest one, you might ask? Issues will always be different but one crucial thing remains the same - hurting my parents (emotionally).
It's like a tsunami hitting again and yet again. This time, it will bound to change our family structure for the rest of our lives - more for my parents. I was really depressed and tensed up for the past few weeks due to some idiotic workload, studies that involve numbers that don't make sense and also from this piece of shit. I will have to bear with it for the rest of my life. Yes, someday I will have to embrace it, but how? I would have to force myself to do it, knowing how stubborn I am.
Flashes of images popped up in my mind when I was told of the news. It will involve many people whom we don't know and I know it's going to be hard for my parents to deal with it. How can a person not think of the consequences before plunging into something big? I mean, I use the word 'Big' because it's not something to be taken lightly. Will my mother suffer because she might probably be forced to take care of the 'thing'? Will my father have to deal with 'it' because he has to? These are not images that I would want to have in my mind.
I need time to digest all these. Time will not heal but it will numb the pain.
Oh my god!
ReplyDeleteI could vividly feel the tensed atmosphere in your writing and it seemed to be struck by a rogue wave in a boundless ocean. So tought yet true!
Hmm... what i can do is to let you know that no matter how tough it is. You have F4 gang, feel free to spit your saliva to us and i believe we are more than willing to be your listener and to be your backbone through thick or thin.
I have no idea what happended to your family. Should you need any assistance, within my ability, i will defintely help. Be strong like you always be. Take care my friend:-)
I'm glad F4 is there for me =)
ReplyDeleteYeah, hopefully Time will make the pain fade away. Whatever it is, I will be strong =) Bigsista ma =) TQ Senpai =)